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Wednesday, March 26, 2014

six years.

It's been six years since I learned that my tiny baby, Noah Joel, didn't have a heartbeat anymore.

:::oh the agony:::

It's been six years since I had to call my husband to tell him that his second child had died.

:::talk about guilt:::

It's been six years since I had to see the pain in my oldest child's face when she learned that her long awaited for sibling had died.  How do you even tell a 3.5 year old that someone - much less a sibling they wanted and loved already - has died!?!? I don't know, but we had to do it.

:::pure heartbreak:::

I don't know why or how this anniversary is affecting me differently than the last few, but for some reason six years just is.

I wish I had something eloquent to say - on his day - but really, my broken heart will have to do.  It's a sign that I'm his mom.  Always and forever.








Noah's One Year blog
Noah's Two Years blog
Noah's Three Years blog
Noah's Four Years blog
Noah's Five Years blog